"I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear; I went to
the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential
facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived." Thoreau
Better pass
boldly into that other world, in the full glory of some passion, than fade and
wither dismally with age.
Ilyich
The Dead
James Joyce
Lily,
the caretaker's daughter, was literally run off her feet. Hardly had she
brought one gentleman into the little pantry behind the office on the ground floor
and helped him off with his overcoat than the wheezy hall-door bell clanged
again and she had to scamper along the bare hallway to let in another guest.
It was well for her she had not to attend to the ladies also. But Miss Kate
and Miss Julia had thought of that and had converted the bathroom upstairs
into a ladies' dressing-room. Miss Kate and Miss Julia were there, gossiping
and laughing and fussing, walking after each other to the head of the stairs,
peering down over the banisters and calling down to Lily to ask her who had
come. It was always a great affair, the Misses Morkan's
annual dance. Everybody who knew them came to it, members of the family, old
friends of the family, the members of Julia's choir,
any of Kate's pupils that were grown up enough and even some of Mary Jane's
pupils too. Never once had it fallen flat. For years and years it had gone
off in splendid style as long as anyone could remember; ever since Kate and Julia, after the death of their
brother Pat, had left the house in Stoney Batter
and taken Mary Jane, their only niece, to live with them in the dark gaunt
house on Usher's Island, the upper part of which they had rented from Mr Fulham, the corn- factor on
the ground floor. That was a good thirty years ago if it was a day. Mary
Jane, who was then a little girl in short clothes, was now the main prop of
the household for she had the organ in Haddington
Road. She had been through the Academy and gave a pupils' concert every year
in the upper room of the Antient Concert Rooms. Many
of her pupils belonged to better-class families on the Kingstown and Dalkey line. Old as they were, her aunts also did their
share. Julia, though she was quite grey, was still the leading soprano in
Adam and Eve's, and Kate, being too feeble to go about much, gave music
lessons to beginners on the old square piano in the back room. Lily, the
caretaker's daughter, did housemaid's work for them. Though their life was
modest they believed in eating well; the best of everything: diamond-bone
sirloins, three-shilling tea and the best bottled stout. But Lily seldom made
a mistake in the orders so that she got on well with her three mistresses.
They were fussy, that was all. But the only thing they would not stand was
back answers. Of course they had good reason to
be fussy on such a night. And then it was long after ten o'clock and yet
there was no sign of Gabriel and his wife. Besides they were dreadfully afraid that Freddy Malins might turn up screwed. They would not wish
for worlds that any of Mary Jane's pupils should see him under the influence;
and when he was like that it was sometimes very hard to manage him. Freddy Malins always came late but they wondered what could be
keeping Gabriel: and that was what brought them every two minutes to the
banisters to ask Lily had Gabriel or Freddy come. —O, Mr
Conroy, said Lily to Gabriel when she opened the door for him, Miss Kate and
Miss Julia thought you were never coming. Good-night, Mrs
Conroy. —I'll engage they did, said
Gabriel, but they forget that my wife here takes three mortal hours to dress herself. He stood on the mat, scraping the
snow from his goloshes, while Lily led his wife to
the foot of the stairs and called out: —Miss Kate, here's Mrs Conroy. Kate and Julia came toddling down
the dark stairs at once. Both of them kissed Gabriel's wife, said she must be
perished alive and asked was Gabriel with her. —Here I am as right as the mail,
Aunt Kate! Go on up. I'll follow, called out Gabriel from the dark. He continued scraping his feet
vigorously while the three women went upstairs, laughing, to the ladies'
dressing-room. A light
fringe of snow lay like a cape on the shoulders of his overcoat and like
toecaps on the toes of his galoshes; and, as the buttons of his overcoat
slipped with a squeaking noise through the snow- stiffened frieze, a cold
fragrant air from out-of-doors escaped from crevices and folds. —Is it snowing again, Mr Conroy? asked Lily. She had
preceded him into the pantry to help him off with his overcoat. Gabriel
smiled at the three syllables she had given his surname and glanced at her.
She was a slim, growing girl, pale in complexion and with hay- coloured hair. The gas in the pantry made her look still
paler. Gabriel had known her when she was a child and used to sit on the lowest
step nursing a rag doll. —Yes, Lily, he answered, and I think we're in for a
night of it. He looked up at the pantry
ceiling, which was shaking with the stamping and shuffling of feet on the floor
above, listened for a moment to the piano and then glanced at the girl, who
was folding his overcoat carefully at the end of a shelf. —Tell me, Lily, he said in a friendly tone, do you still go to
school? —O no, sir, she answered. I'm done schooling this year and more. —O, then, said Gabriel gaily, I suppose we'll be going to your
wedding one of these fine days with your young man, eh? The girl glanced back at him over her shoulder and said with great
bitterness: —The men that is now is only all palaver and what they can get out of
you. Gabriel coloured
as if he felt he had made a mistake and, without looking at her, kicked off
his goloshes and flicked actively with his muffler
at his patent-leather shoes. He was a stout tallish young man.
The high colour of his cheeks pushed upwards even
to his forehead where it scattered itself in a few formless patches of pale
red; and on his hairless face there scintillated restlessly the polished
lenses and the bright gilt rims of the glasses which screened his delicate
and restless eyes. His glossy black hair was parted in the middle and brushed
in a long curve behind his ears where it curled slightly beneath the groove
left by his hat. When he had flicked lustre into his shoes he stood up and pulled his waistcoat
down more tightly on his plump body. Then he took a coin rapidly from his
pocket. —O Lily, he said, thrusting it
into her hands, it's Christmas-time, isn't it? Just . . . here's a little . .
. . He walked rapidly towards the
door. —O no, sir! cried
the girl, following him. Really, sir, I wouldn't take it. —Christmas-time! Christmas-time! said Gabriel, almost trotting to the stairs and waving his
hand to her in deprecation. The girl, seeing that he had
gained the stairs, called out after him: —Well, thank you, sir. He waited outside the drawing-room
door until the waltz should finish, listening to the skirts that swept
against it and to the shuffling of feet. He was still discomposed by the
girl's bitter and sudden retort. It had cast a gloom over him which he tried to dispel by arranging his cuffs and the
bows of his tie. Then he took from his waistcoat pocket a little paper and
glanced at the headings he had made for his speech. He was undecided about the lines from
Robert Browning for he feared they would be above the heads of his hearers.
Some quotation that they could recognise from
Shakespeare or from the Melodies would be better. The indelicate clacking of the men's heels and
the shuffling of their soles reminded him that their grade of culture
differed from his. He would only make himself ridiculous by quoting poetry to
them which they could not understand. They would think that he was
airing his superior education. He would fail with them just as he had failed
with the girl in the pantry. He had taken up a wrong tone. His whole speech was a mistake
from first to last, an utter failure. Just then his aunts and his wife
came out of the ladies' dressing-room. His aunts were two small plainly
dressed old women. Aunt Julia was an inch or so the taller. Her hair, drawn
low over the tops of her ears, was grey; and grey also, with darker shadows,
was her large flaccid face. Though she was stout in build and stood erect her
slow eyes and parted lips gave her the appearance of a woman who did not know
where she was or where she was going. Aunt Kate was more vivacious. Her face,
healthier than her sister's, was all puckers and creases, like a shrivelled red apple, and her hair, braided in the same
old-fashioned way, had not lost its ripe nut colour.
They both kissed Gabriel frankly.
He was their favourite nephew, the son of their
dead elder sister, Ellen, who had married T. J. Conroy of the Port and Docks.
—Gretta
tells me you're not going to take a cab back to Monkstown
tonight, Gabriel, said Aunt Kate. —No, said Gabriel, turning to his
wife, we had quite enough of that last year, hadn't we? Don't you remember,
Aunt Kate, what a cold Gretta got out of it? Cab
windows rattling all the way, and the east wind blowing in after we passed Merrion. Very jolly it was. Gretta
caught a dreadful cold. Aunt Kate frowned severely and
nodded her head at every word. —Quite right, Gabriel, quite
right, she said. You can't be too careful. —But as for Gretta
there, said Gabriel, she'd walk home in the snow if she were let. Mrs Conroy laughed. —Don't mind him, Aunt Kate, she
said. He's really an awful bother, what with green shades for Tom's eyes at
night and making him do the dumb-bells, and forcing Eva to eat the stirabout. The poor child! And
she simply hates the sight of it!…O, but you'll
never guess what he makes me wear now! She broke out into a peal of
laughter and glanced at her husband, whose admiring and happy eyes had been
wandering from her dress to her face and hair. The two aunts laughed heartily
too, for Gabriel's solicitude was a standing joke with them. —Galoshes! said
Mrs Conroy. That's the latest. Whenever it's wet
underfoot I must put on my galoshes. Tonight even he wanted me to put them on,
but I wouldn't. The next thing he'll buy me will be a diving suit. Gabriel laughed nervously and
patted his tie reassuringly while Aunt Kate nearly doubled herself, so
heartily did she enjoy the joke. The smile soon faded from Aunt Julia's face
and her mirthless eyes were directed towards her nephew's face. After a pause
she asked: —And what are goloshes,
Gabriel? —Goloshes,
Julia! exclaimed her sister. Goodness me, don't you
know what goloshes are? You wear them over your . .
. over your boots, Gretta, isn't it? —Yes, said Mrs
Conroy. Guttapercha things. We both have a pair
now. Gabriel says everyone wears them on the continent. —O, on the continent, murmured
Aunt Julia, nodding her head slowly. Gabriel knitted his brows and
said, as if he were slightly angered: —It's nothing very wonderful but Gretta thinks it very funny because she says the word
reminds her of Christy Minstrels. —But tell me, Gabriel, said Aunt
Kate, with brisk tact. Of course, you've seen about the room. Gretta was saying . . . —O, the room is all right, replied
Gabriel. I've taken one in the Gresham. —To be sure, said Aunt Kate, by
far the best thing to do. And the children, Gretta,
you're not anxious about them? —O, for one night, said Mrs Conroy. Besides, Bessie will look after them. —To be sure, said Aunt Kate again.
What a comfort it is to have a girl like that, one you can depend on! There's
that Lily, I'm sure I don't know what has come over her
lately. She's not the girl she was at all. Gabriel was about to ask his aunt
some questions on this point but she broke off suddenly to gaze after her
sister who had wandered down the stairs and was craning her neck over the
banisters. —Now, I ask you, she said, almost
testily, where is Julia going? Julia! Julia! Where are you going? Julia, who had gone halfway down
one flight, came back and announced blandly: —Here's Freddy. At the same moment a clapping of
hands and a final flourish of the pianist told that the waltz had ended. The
drawing- room door was opened from within and some couples came out. Aunt
Kate drew Gabriel aside hurriedly and whispered into his ear: —Slip down, Gabriel, like a good
fellow and see if he's all right, and don't let him up if he's screwed. I'm
sure he's screwed. I'm sure he is. Gabriel went to the stairs and
listened over the banisters. He could hear two persons talking in the pantry.
Then he recognised Freddy Malins'
laugh. He went down the stairs noisily. —it's such a relief, said Aunt
Kate to Mrs Conroy, that
Gabriel is here. I always feel easier in my mind when he's here.… Julia,
there's Miss Daly and Miss Power will take some refreshment. Thanks for your
beautiful waltz, Miss Daly. It made lovely time. A tall wizen-faced man, with a
stiff grizzled moustache and swarthy skin, who was passing out with his
partner said: —And may we have some refreshment,
too, Miss Morkan? —Julia, said Aunt Kate summarily,
and here's Mr Browne and Miss Furlong. Take them
in, Julia, with Miss Daly and Miss Power. —I'm the man for the ladies, said Mr Browne, pursing his lips until his moustache bristled
and smiling in all his wrinkles. You know, Miss Morkan,
the reason they are so fond of me is — He did not finish his sentence,
but, seeing that Aunt Kate was out of earshot, at once led the three young
ladies into the back room. The middle of the room was occupied by two square
tables placed end to end, and on these Aunt Julia and the caretaker were
straightening and smoothing a large cloth. On the sideboard were arrayed
dishes and plates, and glasses and bundles of knives and forks and spoons.
The top of the closed square piano served also as a sideboard for viands and
sweets. At a smaller sideboard in one corner two young men were standing,
drinking hop-bitters. Mr Browne led his charges thither and invited them all, in
jest, to some ladies' punch, hot, strong and sweet. As they said they never
took anything strong he opened three bottles of lemonade for them. Then he
asked one of the young men to move aside, and, taking hold of the decanter,
filled out for himself a goodly measure of whisky. The young men eyed him
respectfully while he took a trial sip. —God help me, he said, smiling,
it's the doctor's orders. His wizened face broke into a broader
smile, and the three young ladies laughed in musical echo to his pleasantry,
swaying their bodies to and fro, with nervous jerks of their shoulders. The
boldest said: —O, now, Mr
Browne, I'm sure the doctor never ordered anything of the kind. Mr Browne took another sip of his whisky and said, with
sidling mimicry: —Well, you see, I'm like the
famous Mrs Cassidy, who is reported to have said:
Now, Mary Grimes, if I don't take it, make me take it, for I feel I want it. His hot face had leaned forward a
little too confidentially and he had assumed a very low Dublin accent so that
the young ladies, with one instinct, received his speech in silence. Miss
Furlong, who was one of Mary Jane's pupils, asked Miss Daly what was the name
of the pretty waltz she had played; and Mr Browne,
seeing that he was ignored, turned promptly to the two young men who were
more appreciative. A red-faced young woman, dressed
in pansy, came into the room, excitedly clapping her hands and crying: —Quadrilles!
Quadrilles! Close on her heels came Aunt Kate,
crying: —Two gentlemen and three ladies,
Mary Jane! —O, here's
Mr Bergin and Mr
Kerrigan, said Mary Jane. Mr Kerrigan, will you
take Miss Power? Miss Furlong, may I get you a partner, Mr
Bergin. O, that'll just do now. —Three ladies, Mary Jane, said
Aunt Kate. The two young gentlemen asked the
ladies if they might have the pleasure, and Mary Jane turned to Miss Daly. —O, Miss Daly, you're really
awfully good, after playing for the last two dances, but really we're so short
of ladies to-night. —I don't mind in the least, Miss Morkan. —But I've a nice partner for you, Mr Bartell D'Arcy, the tenor. I'll get him to sing later
on. All Dublin is raving about him. —Lovely voice, lovely voice! said Aunt Kate. As the piano had twice begun the
prelude to the first figure Mary Jane led her recruits quickly from the room.
They had hardly gone when Aunt Julia wandered slowly into the room, looking
behind her at something. —What is the matter, Julia? asked Aunt Kate anxiously. Who is it? Julia, who was carrying in a
column of table-napkins, turned to her sister and said, simply, as if the
question had surprised her: —It's only Freddy, Kate, and
Gabriel with him. In fact right behind her Gabriel
could be seen piloting Freddy Malins across the
landing. The latter, a young man of about forty, was of Gabriel's size and
build, with very round shoulders. His face was fleshy and pallid, touched
with colour only at the thick hanging lobes of his
ears and at the wide wings of his nose. He had coarse features, a blunt nose,
a convex and receding brow, tumid and protruded lips. His heavy-lidded eyes
and the disorder of his scanty hair made him look sleepy. He was laughing
heartily in a high key at a story which he had been telling Gabriel on the
stairs and at the same time rubbing the knuckles of his left fist backwards
and forwards into his left eye. —Good-evening, Freddy, said Aunt
Julia. Freddy Malins
bade the Misses Morkan good-evening in what seemed
an offhand fashion by reason of the habitual catch in his voice and then,
seeing that Mr Browne was grinning at him from the
sideboard, crossed the room on rather shaky legs and began to repeat in an
undertone the story he had just told to Gabriel. —He's not so bad, is he? said Aunt Kate to Gabriel. Gabriel's brows were dark but he
raised them quickly and answered: —O no, hardly noticeable. —Now, isn't he a terrible fellow! she said. And his poor mother made him take the pledge on New
Year's Eve. But come on, Gabriel, into the drawing-room. Before leaving the room with
Gabriel she signalled to Mr
Browne by frowning and shaking her forefinger in warning to and fro. Mr Browne nodded in answer and, when she had gone, said
to Freddy Malins: —Now, then, Teddy, I'm going to
fill you out a good glass of lemonade just to buck you up. Freddy Malins,
who was nearing the climax of his story, waved the offer aside impatiently
but Mr Browne, having first called Freddy Malins' attention to a disarray in his dress, filled out
and handed him a full glass of lemonade. Freddy Malins'
left hand accepted the glass mechanically, his right hand being engaged in
the mechanical readjustment of his dress. Mr
Browne, whose face was once more wrinkling with mirth, poured out for himself
a glass of whisky while Freddy Malins exploded,
before he had well reached the climax of his story, in a kink
of high-pitched bronchitic laughter and, setting
down his untasted and overflowing glass, began to
rub the knuckles of his left fist backwards and forwards into his left eye,
repeating words of his last phrase as well as his fit of laughter would allow
him. .
. . . . . . . Gabriel could not listen while
Mary Jane was playing her Academy piece, full of runs and difficult passages,
to the hushed drawing-room. He
liked music but the piece she was playing had no melody for him and he
doubted whether it had any melody for the other listeners, though they had
begged Mary Jane to play something. Four young men, who had come from the
refreshment- room to stand in the doorway at the sound of the piano, had gone
away quietly in couples after a few minutes. The only persons who seemed to
follow the music were Mary Jane herself, her hands racing along the key-board
or lifted from it at the pauses like those of a priestess in momentary
imprecation, and Aunt Kate standing at her elbow to turn the page. Gabriel's eyes, irritated by the
floor, which glittered with beeswax under the heavy chandelier, wandered to
the wall above the piano. A picture of the balcony scene in Romeo and Juliet
hung there and beside it was a picture of the two murdered princes in the
Tower which Aunt Julia had worked in red, blue and brown wools when she was a
girl. Probably in the school they had gone to as girls that kind of work had
been taught, for one year his mother had worked for him as a birthday present
a waistcoat of purple tabinet, with little foxes'
heads upon it, lined with brown satin and having round mulberry buttons. It
was strange that his mother
had had no musical talent though Aunt Kate used to call her the brains
carrier of the Morkan family. Both she and Julia
had always seemed a little proud of their serious and matronly sister. Her [Gabriel’s mother
and her perceived social ranking for him] photograph stood before the pierglass.
She held an open book on her knees and was pointing out something in it to
Constantine who, dressed in a man-o'-war suit, lay at her feet. It was she
who had chosen the names for her sons for she was very sensible of the
dignity of family life. Thanks to her, Constantine was now senior curate in
Balbriggan and, thanks to her, Gabriel himself had taken his degree in the
Royal University. A shadow passed over his face as he remembered her sullen
opposition to his marriage. Some slighting phrases she had used still rankled
in his memory; she
had once spoken of Gretta as being country cute and that was not true of Gretta at all. It was Gretta
who had nursed her during all her last long illness in their house at Monkstown. He knew that Mary Jane must be
near the end of her piece for she was playing again the opening melody with
runs of scales after every bar and while he waited for the end the resentment
died down in his heart. The piece ended with a trill of octaves in the treble
and a final deep octave in the bass. Great applause greeted Mary Jane as,
blushing and rolling up her music nervously, she escaped from the room. The
most vigorous clapping came from the four young men in the doorway who had
gone away to the refreshment-room at the beginning of the piece but had come
back when the piano had stopped. Lancers were arranged. Gabriel
found himself partnered with Miss Ivors. She was a
frank-mannered talkative young lady, with a freckled face and prominent brown
eyes. She did not wear a low- cut bodice and the large brooch which was fixed
in the front of her collar bore on it an Irish
device. When they had taken their places
she said abruptly: —I have a crow to pluck with you.
—With me? said
Gabriel. She nodded her head gravely. —What is it? asked
Gabriel, smiling at her solemn manner. —Who is G. C.? answered
Miss Ivors, turning her eyes upon him. Gabriel coloured and was about to knit his
brows, as if he did not understand, when she said bluntly: —O, innocent Amy! I have found out that you write for The Daily
Express. Now, aren't you ashamed of yourself? —Why should I be ashamed of myself? asked
Gabriel, blinking his eyes and trying to smile. —Well, I'm ashamed of you, said Miss Ivors
frankly. To say you'd write for a rag like that. I didn't think you were a
West Briton. A look of perplexity appeared on
Gabriel's face. It was true that he wrote a literary column every Wednesday
in The Daily Express, for which he was paid fifteen shillings. But that did
not make him a West Briton surely. The books he received for review were
almost more welcome than the paltry cheque. He
loved to feel the covers and turn over the pages of newly printed books.
Nearly every day when his teaching in the college was ended he used to wander
down the quays to the second-hand booksellers, to Hickey's on Bachelor's
Walk, to Webb's or Massey's on Aston's Quay, or to O'Clohissey's
in the by-street. He did not know how to meet her charge. He wanted to say
that literature was above politics. But they were friends of many years'
standing and their careers had been parallel, first at the University and
then as teachers: he could not risk a grandiose phrase with her. He continued
blinking his eyes and trying to smile and murmured lamely that he saw nothing
political in writing reviews of books. When their turn to cross had come
he was still perplexed and inattentive. Miss Ivors
promptly took his hand in a warm grasp and said in a soft friendly tone: —Of course, I was only joking.
Come, we cross now. When they were together again she
spoke of the University question and Gabriel felt more at ease. A friend of
hers had shown her his review of Browning's poems. That was how she had found out
the secret: but she liked the review immensely. Then she said suddenly: [an Ireland trip] —O, Mr
Conroy, will you come for an excursion to the Aran
Isles this summer? We're going to stay there a whole month. It will be
splendid out in the Atlantic. You ought to come. Mr
Clancy is coming, and Mr Kilkelly
and Kathleen Kearney. It would be splendid for Gretta
too if she'd come. She's from Connacht, isn't she? —Her people are, said Gabriel shortly. —But you will come, won't you? said Miss Ivors, laying her warm hand eagerly on his arm. —The fact is, said Gabriel, I have already arranged to go— —Go where? asked Miss Ivors.
—Well, you know every year I go for a cycling tour with some fellows
and so— —But where? asked Miss Ivors.
—Well, we usually go to France or Belgium or perhaps Germany, said
Gabriel awkwardly. —And
why do you go to France and Belgium, said Miss Ivors,
instead of visiting your own land?
—Well, said Gabriel, it's partly
to keep in touch with the languages and partly for a change. —And haven't you your own language
to keep in touch with—Irish? asked Miss Ivors. —Well, said Gabriel, if it comes
to that, you know, Irish is not my language. Their neighbours
had turned to listen to the cross- examination. Gabriel glanced right and
left nervously and tried to keep his good humour
under the ordeal which was making a blush invade his forehead. —And haven't you your own land to
visit, continued Miss Ivors, that you know nothing
of, your own people, and your own country? —O, to tell you the truth,
retorted Gabriel suddenly, I'm sick of my own country, sick of it! —Why? asked
Miss Ivors. Gabriel did not answer for his
retort had heated him. —Why? repeated
Miss Ivors. They had to go visiting together
and, as he had not answered her, Miss Ivors said
warmly: —Of course, you've no answer. Gabriel tried to cover his
agitation by taking part in the dance with great energy. He avoided her eyes
for he had seen a sour expression on her face. But when they met in the long
chain he was surprised to feel his hand firmly pressed. She looked at him
from under her brows for a moment quizzically until he smiled. Then, just as
the chain was about to start again, she stood on tiptoe and whispered into
his ear: —West Briton! [West Briton (adjective West
British; both often shortened to West Brit) is an often pejorative
term for an Irish person who is alleged by the user of the term to be
excessively sympathetic to the United Kingdom who takes his/her cultural and
social cues from Great Britain.] What
generates authenticity? Culture?
Color? Family status? When the lancers were over Gabriel
went away to a remote corner of the room where Freddy Malins'
mother was sitting. She was a stout feeble old woman with white hair. Her
voice had a catch in it like her son's and she stuttered slightly. She had
been told that Freddy had come and that he was nearly all right. Gabriel
asked her whether she had had a good crossing. She lived with her married
daughter in Glasgow and came to Dublin on a visit once a year. She answered
placidly that she had had a beautiful crossing and that the captain had been
most attentive to her. She spoke also of the beautiful house her daughter
kept in Glasgow, and of all the nice friends they had there. While her tongue
rambled on Gabriel tried to banish from his mind all memory of the unpleasant
incident with Miss Ivors. Of course the girl or
woman, or whatever she was, was an enthusiast but there was a time for all
things. Perhaps he ought not to have answered her like that. But she had no
right to call him a West Briton before people, even in joke. She had tried to
make him ridiculous before people, heckling him and staring at him with her
rabbit's eyes. He saw his wife making her way
towards him through the waltzing
couples. When she reached him she said into his ear: —Gabriel, Aunt Kate wants to know
won't you carve the goose as usual. Miss Daly will carve the ham and I'll do
the pudding. —All right, said Gabriel. —She's sending in the younger ones
first as soon as this waltz is over so that we'll have the table to
ourselves. —Were you dancing? asked Gabriel. —Of course I was. Didn't you see
me? What words had you with Molly Ivors? —No words. Why? Did she say so? —Something like
that. I'm trying to get that Mr D'Arcy to sing.
He's full of conceit, I think. —There were no words, said Gabriel moodily, only she wanted me to go
for a trip to the west of Ireland and I said I wouldn't. His wife clasped her hands excitedly and gave a little jump. —O, do go, Gabriel, she cried. I'd love to see Galway again. —You can go if you like, said Gabriel coldly. She looked at him for a moment,
then turned to Mrs Malins
and said: —There's a nice husband for you, Mrs Malins. While she was threading her way
back across the room Mrs Malins,
without adverting to the interruption, went on to tell Gabriel what beautiful
places there were in Scotland and beautiful scenery. Her son-in-law brought
them every year to the lakes and they used to go fishing. Her son-in-law was
a splendid fisher. One day he caught a fish, a beautiful big big fish, and the man in the hotel boiled it for their
dinner. Gabriel hardly heard what she
said. Now that supper was coming near he began to think again about his
speech and about the quotation. When he saw Freddy Malins
coming across the room to visit his mother Gabriel left the chair free for
him and retired into the embrasure of the window. The room had already
cleared and from the back room came the clatter of plates and knives. Those
who still remained in the drawing-room seemed tired of dancing and were
conversing quietly in little groups. Gabriel's warm trembling fingers tapped the cold pane
of the window. How cool it must be outside! How pleasant it would be to walk
out alone, first along by the river and then through the park! The snow would
be lying on the branches of the trees and forming a bright cap on the top of
the Wellington Monument. How much more pleasant it would be there than at the
supper- table! He ran over the headings of his
speech: Irish hospitality, sad memories, the Three Graces, Paris, the
quotation from Browning. He repeated to himself a phrase he had written in
his review: One feels that one
is listening to a thought-tormented music. Miss Ivors
had praised the review. Was she sincere? Had she really any life of her own
behind all her propagandism? There had never been
any ill-feeling between them until that night. It unnerved him to think that
she would be at the supper-table, looking up at him while he spoke with her
critical quizzing eyes. Perhaps she would not be sorry to see him fail in his
speech. An idea came into his mind and gave him courage. He would say,
alluding to Aunt Kate and Aunt Julia: Ladies and Gentlemen, the generation
which is now on the wane among us may have had its faults but for my part I
think it had certain qualities of hospitality, of humour,
of humanity, which the new and very serious and hypereducated
generation that is growing up around us seems to me to lack. Very good: that
was one for Miss Ivors. What did he care that his
aunts were only two ignorant old women? A murmur in the room attracted his
attention. Mr Browne was advancing from the door,
gallantly escorting Aunt Julia, who leaned upon his arm, smiling and hanging
her head. An irregular
musketry of applause escorted her also as far as the piano and then,
as Mary Jane seated herself on the stool, and Aunt Julia, no longer smiling,
half turned so as to pitch her voice fairly into the room, gradually ceased.
Gabriel recognised the prelude. It was that of an old song of
Aunt Julia's—Arrayed for the Bridal. Her voice, strong and clear in
tone, attacked with great spirit the runs which embellish the air and though
she sang very rapidly she did not miss even the smallest of the grace notes.
To follow the voice, without looking at the singer's face, was to feel and
share the excitement of swift and secure flight. Gabriel applauded loudly
with all the others at the close of the song and loud applause was borne in from the invisible supper-table. It sounded so
genuine that a little colour struggled into Aunt
Julia's face as she bent to replace in the music-stand the old leather-bound
song-book that had her initials on the cover. Freddy Malins,
who had listened with his head perched sideways to hear her better, was still
applauding when everyone else had ceased and talking animatedly to his mother
who nodded her head gravely and slowly in acquiescence. At last, when he
could clap no more, he stood up suddenly and hurried across the room to Aunt
Julia whose hand he seized and held in both his hands, shaking it when words
failed him or the catch in his voice proved too much for him. —I was just telling my mother, he
said, I never heard you sing so well, never. No, I never heard your voice so good as it is tonight. Now! Would you believe that now?
That's the truth. Upon my word and honour that's
the truth. I never heard your voice sound so fresh and so . . . so clear and
fresh, never. Aunt Julia smiled broadly and
murmured something about compliments as she released her hand from his grasp.
Mr Browne extended his open hand towards her and said
to those who were near him in the manner of a showman introducing a prodigy
to an audience: —Miss Julia Morkan,
my latest discovery! He was laughing very heartily at
this himself when Freddy Malins turned to him and
said: —Well, Browne, if you're serious
you might make a worse discovery. All I can say is I never heard her sing
half so well as long as I am coming here. And that's the honest truth. —Neither did I, said Mr Browne. I think her voice has greatly improved. Aunt Julia shrugged her shoulders
and said with meek pride: —Thirty years ago I hadn't a bad
voice as voices go. —I often told Julia, said Aunt
Kate emphatically, that she was simply thrown away in that choir. But she
never would be said by me. She turned as if to appeal to the
good sense of the others against a refractory child while Aunt Julia gazed in
front of her, a vague smile of reminiscence playing on her face. —No, continued Aunt Kate, she
wouldn't be said or led by anyone, slaving there in that choir night and day,
night and day. Six o'clock on Christmas morning! And all for what? —Well, isn't it for the honour of God, Aunt Kate? asked
Mary Jane, twisting round on the piano-stool and smiling. Aunt Kate turned fiercely on her
niece and said: —I know all about the honour of God, Mary
Jane, but I think it's not at all honourable for
the pope to turn out the women out of the choirs that have slaved there all
their lives and put little whipper-snappers of boys
over their heads. I suppose it is for the good of the Church if the pope does
it. But it's not just, Mary Jane, and it's not right. She had worked herself into a
passion and would have continued in defence of her
sister for it was a sore subject with her but Mary Jane, seeing that all the
dancers had come back, intervened pacifically: —Now, Aunt Kate, you're giving
scandal to Mr Browne who is of the other
persuasion. Aunt Kate turned to Mr Browne, who was grinning at this allusion to his
religion, and said hastily: —O, I don't question the pope's being right. I'm only a stupid old
woman and I wouldn't presume to do such a thing. But there's such a thing as
common everyday politeness and gratitude. And if I were in Julia's place I'd
tell that Father Healy straight up to his face . . . —And besides, Aunt Kate, said Mary
Jane, we really are all hungry and when we are hungry we are all very
quarrelsome. —And when we are thirsty we are
also quarrelsome, added Mr Browne. —So that we had better go to
supper, said Mary Jane, and finish the discussion afterwards. On the landing outside the
drawing-room Gabriel found his wife and Mary Jane trying to persuade Miss Ivors to stay for supper. But Miss Ivors,
who had put on her hat and was buttoning her cloak, would not stay. She did
not feel in the least hungry and she had already overstayed her time. —But only for ten minutes, Molly,
said Mrs Conroy. That won't delay you. —To take a pick itself, said Mary
Jane, after all your dancing. —I really couldn't, said Miss Ivors. —I am afraid you didn't enjoy
yourself at all, said Mary Jane hopelessly. —Ever so much, I assure you, said
Miss Ivors, but you really must let me run off now.
—But how can you get home? asked Mrs Conroy. —O, it's only two steps up the
quay. Gabriel hesitated a moment and
said: —If you will allow me, Miss Ivors, I'll see you home if you really are obliged to go.
But Miss Ivors
broke away from them. —I won't hear of it, she cried.
For goodness sake go in to your suppers and don't mind me. I'm quite well
able to take care of myself. —Well, you're the comical girl,
Molly, said Mrs Conroy frankly. —Beannacht
libh, cried Miss Ivors,
with a laugh, as she ran down the staircase. Mary Jane gazed after her, a moody
puzzled expression on her face, while Mrs Conroy
leaned over the banisters to listen for the hall-door. Gabriel asked himself
was he the cause of her abrupt departure. But she did not seem to be in ill humour: she had gone away laughing. He stared blankly
down the staircase. At that moment Aunt Kate came
toddling out of the supper-room, almost wringing her hands in despair. —Where is Gabriel? she cried. Where on earth is Gabriel? There's everyone
waiting in there, stage to let, and nobody to carve the goose! —Here I am, Aunt Kate! cried Gabriel, with sudden animation, ready to carve a
flock of geese, if necessary. A fat brown goose lay at one end of the table and at the other end, on a bed
of creased paper strewn with sprigs of parsley, lay a great ham, stripped of
its outer skin and peppered over with crust crumbs, a neat paper frill round
its shin and beside this was a round of spiced beef. Between these rival ends
ran parallel lines of side- dishes: two little minsters
of jelly, red and yellow; a shallow dish full of blocks of blancmange and red
jam, a large green leaf-shaped dish with a stalk-shaped handle, on which lay
bunches of purple raisins and peeled almonds, a companion dish on which lay a
solid rectangle of Smyrna figs, a dish of custard topped with grated nutmeg,
a small bowl full of chocolates and sweets wrapped in gold and silver papers and
a glass vase in which stood some tall celery stalks. In the centre of the
table there stood, as sentries to a fruit-stand which upheld a pyramid of
oranges and American apples, two squat old-fashioned decanters of cut glass,
one containing port and the other dark sherry. On the closed square piano a
pudding in a huge yellow dish lay in waiting and behind it were three squads
of bottles of stout and ale and minerals, drawn up according to the colours of their uniforms, the first two black, with
brown and red labels, the third and smallest squad white, with transverse
green sashes. Gabriel took his seat boldly at
the head of the table and, having looked to the edge of the carver, plunged
his fork firmly into the goose. He felt quite at ease now for he was an
expert carver and liked nothing better than to find himself
at the head of a well-laden table. —Miss Furlong, what shall I send
you? he asked. A wing or a slice of the breast? —Just a small slice of the breast.
—Miss Higgins, what for you? —O, anything at all, Mr Conroy. While Gabriel and Miss Daly
exchanged plates of goose and plates of ham and spiced beef Lily went from
guest to guest with a dish of hot floury potatoes wrapped in a white napkin.
This was Mary Jane's idea and she had also suggested apple sauce for the
goose but Aunt Kate had said that plain roast goose without apple sauce had
always been good enough for her and she hoped she might never eat worse. Mary
Jane waited on her pupils and saw that they got the best slices and Aunt Kate
and Aunt Julia opened and carried across from the piano bottles of stout and
ale for the gentlemen and bottles of minerals for the ladies. There was a
great deal of confusion and laughter and noise, the noise of orders and
counter-orders, of knives and forks, of corks and glass- stoppers. Gabriel
began to carve second helpings as soon as he had finished the first round
without serving himself. Everyone protested loudly so that he compromised by
taking a long draught of stout for he had found the carving hot work. Mary
Jane settled down quietly to her supper but Aunt Kate and Aunt Julia were
still toddling round the table, walking on each other's heels, getting in
each other's way and giving each other unheeded orders. Mr
Browne begged of them to sit down and eat their suppers and so did Gabriel
but they said there was time enough so that, at last, Freddy Malins stood up and, capturing Aunt Kate, plumped her
down on her chair amid general laughter. When everyone had been well served
Gabriel said, smiling: —Now, if anyone wants a little more of what vulgar
people call stuffing let him or her speak. A chorus of voices invited him to
begin his own supper and Lily came forward with three potatoes which she had
reserved for him. —Very well, said Gabriel amiably,
as he took another preparatory draught, kindly forget
my existence, ladies and gentlemen, for a few minutes. He set to his supper and took no
part in the conversation with which the table covered Lily's removal of the
plates. The subject of talk was the opera company which was then at the
Theatre Royal. Mr Bartell D'Arcy, the tenor, a
dark-complexioned young man with a smart moustache, praised very highly the
leading contralto of the company but Miss Furlong thought she had a rather
vulgar style of production. Freddy Malins said
there was a negro chieftain singing in the second part of the Gaiety
pantomime who had one of the finest tenor voices he had ever heard. —Have you heard him? he asked Mr Bartell D'Arcy
across the table. —No, answered Mr
Bartell D'Arcy carelessly. —Because, Freddy Malins explained, now I'd be curious to hear your opinion
of him. I think he has a grand voice. —It takes Teddy to find out the
really good things, said Mr Browne familiarly to
the table. —And why couldn't he have a voice
too? asked Freddy Malins
sharply. Is it because he's only a black? Nobody answered this question and
Mary Jane led the table back to the legitimate opera. One of her pupils had
given her a pass for Mignon. Of course it was very fine, she said, but it
made her think of poor Georgina Burns. Mr Browne
could go back farther still, to the old Italian companies that used to come
to Dublin—Tietjens, Ilma
de Murzka, Campanini, the
great Trebelli, Giuglini,
Ravelli, Aramburo. Those
were the days, he said, when there was something like singing to be heard in
Dublin. He told too of how the top gallery of the old Royal used to be packed
night after night, of how one night an Italian tenor had sung five encores to
Let Me Like a Soldier Fall, introducing a high C every time, and of how the
gallery boys would sometimes in their enthusiasm unyoke the horses from the
carriage of some great prima donna and pull her themselves through the
streets to her hotel. Why did they never play the grand old operas now, he asked,
Dinorah, Lucrezia Borgia?
Because they could not get the voices to sing them: that was why. —O, well, said Mr
Bartell D'Arcy, I presume there are as good singers to-day as there were
then. —Where are they? asked Mr Browne defiantly. —In London, Paris, Milan, said Mr Bartell D'Arcy warmly. I suppose Caruso, for example,
is quite as good, if not better than any of the men you have mentioned. —Maybe so, said Mr Browne. But I may tell you I doubt it strongly. —O, I'd give anything to hear
Caruso sing, said Mary Jane. —For me, said Aunt Kate, who had
been picking a bone, there was only one tenor. To please me, I mean. But I
suppose none of you ever heard of him. —Who was he, Miss Morkan? asked Mr Bartell D'Arcy politely. —His name, said Aunt Kate, was
Parkinson. I heard him when he was in his prime and I think he had then the
purest tenor voice that was ever put into a man's throat. —Strange, said Mr
Bartell D'Arcy. I never even heard of him. —Yes, yes, Miss Morkan is right, said Mr
Browne. I remember hearing of old Parkinson but he's too far back for me. —A beautiful pure sweet mellow
English tenor, said Aunt Kate with enthusiasm. Gabriel having finished, the huge
pudding was transferred to the table. The clatter of forks and spoons began again.
Gabriel's wife served out spoonfuls of the pudding and passed the plates down
the table. Midway down they were held up by Mary Jane, who replenished them
with raspberry or orange jelly or with blancmange and jam. The pudding was of
Aunt Julia's making and she received praises for it from all quarters. She
herself said that it was not quite brown enough. —Well, I hope, Miss Morkan, said Mr Browne, that
I'm brown enough for you because, you know, I'm all brown. All the gentlemen, except Gabriel,
ate some of the pudding out of compliment to Aunt Julia. As Gabriel never ate
sweets the celery had been left for him. Freddy Malins
also took a stalk of celery and ate it with his pudding. He had been told
that celery was a capital thing for the blood and he was just then under doctor's care. Mrs Malins, who had been silent all through the supper, said
that her son was going down to Mount Melleray in a week or so. The table
then spoke of Mount Melleray, how bracing the air
was down there, how hospitable the monks were and how they never asked for a
penny-piece from their guests. —And do you mean to say, asked Mr Browne
incredulously, that a chap can go down there and put up there as if it were a
hotel and live on the fat of the land and then come away without paying a
farthing? —O, most people give some donation to the monastery when they leave,
said Mary Jane. —I wish we had an institution like that in our Church, said Mr Browne candidly. He was astonished to hear that the monks never spoke, got up at two in the
morning and slept in their coffins. He asked what they did it for. —That's the rule of the order, said Aunt Kate firmly. —Yes, but why? asked Mr
Browne. Aunt Kate repeated that it was the rule, that
was all. Mr Browne still seemed not to understand.
Freddy Malins explained to him, as best he could,
that the monks were trying to make up for the sins committed by all the
sinners in the outside world. The explanation was not very clear for Mr Browne grinned and said: —I like that idea very much but wouldn't a comfortable spring bed do
them as well as a coffin? —The coffin, said Mary Jane, is to remind them of their last end. As the subject had grown lugubrious it was buried in a silence of the table during
which Mrs Malins could be
heard saying to her neighbour in an indistinct
undertone: —They are very good men, the monks, very
pious men. The raisins and almonds and figs
and apples and oranges and chocolates and sweets were now passed about the
table and Aunt Julia invited all the guests to have either port or sherry. At
first Mr Bartell D'Arcy refused to take either but
one of his neighbours nudged him and whispered
something to him upon which he allowed his glass to be filled. Gradually as
the last glasses were being filled the conversation ceased. A pause followed,
broken only by the noise of the wine and by unsettlings
of chairs. The Misses Morkan, all three, looked
down at the tablecloth. Someone coughed once or twice and then a few
gentlemen patted the table gently as a signal for silence. The silence came
and Gabriel pushed back his chair and stood up. The patting at once grew louder in
encouragement and then ceased altogether. Gabriel leaned his ten trembling
fingers on the tablecloth and smiled nervously at the company. Meeting a row
of upturned faces he raised his eyes to the chandelier. The piano was playing
a waltz tune and he could hear the skirts sweeping against the drawing-room
door. People, perhaps, were standing in the snow on the quay outside, gazing
up at the lighted windows and listening to the waltz music. The air was pure
there. In the distance lay the park where the trees were weighted with snow.
The Wellington Monument wore a gleaming cap of snow that flashed westward
over the white field of Fifteen Acres. He began: —Ladies and Gentlemen. —It has fallen to my lot this
evening, as in years past, to perform a very pleasing task but a task for
which I am afraid my poor powers as a speaker are all too inadequate. —No, no! said
Mr Browne. —But, however that may be, I can
only ask you tonight to take the will for the deed and to lend me your
attention for a few moments while I endeavour to
express to you in words what my feelings are on this occasion. —Ladies and Gentlemen. It is not
the first time that we have gathered together under this hospitable roof,
around this hospitable board. It is not the first time that we have been the
recipients—or perhaps, I had better say, the victims—of the hospitality of
certain good ladies. He made a circle in the air with
his arm and paused. Everyone laughed or smiled at Aunt Kate and Aunt Julia
and Mary Jane who all turned crimson with pleasure. Gabriel went on more
boldly: —I feel more strongly with every
recurring year that our country has no tradition which does it so much honour and which it should guard so
jealously as that of its hospitality. It is a tradition that is unique as far
as my experience goes (and I have visited not a few places abroad) among the
modern nations. Some would say, perhaps, that with us it is rather a failing
than anything to be boasted of. But granted even that, it is, to my mind, a
princely failing, and one that I trust will long be cultivated among us. Of
one thing, at least, I am sure. As long as this one roof shelters the good
ladies aforesaid—and I wish from my heart it may do so for many and many a
long year to come—the tradition of genuine warm-hearted courteous Irish
hospitality, which our forefathers have handed down to us and which we in
turn must hand down to our descendants, is still alive among us. A hearty
murmur of assent ran round the table. It shot through Gabriel's mind that
Miss Ivors was not there and that she had gone away
discourteously: and he said with confidence in himself: —Ladies and Gentlemen. —A new generation is growing up in
our midst, a generation actuated by new ideas and new principles. It is
serious and enthusiastic for these new ideas and its enthusiasm, even when it
is misdirected, is, I believe, in the main sincere. But we are living in a skeptical
and, if I may use the phrase, a thought- tormented age: and sometimes I fear that this new
generation, educated or hypereducated as it is, will lack those qualities of humanity, of hospitality,
of kindly humour which belonged to an older day.
Listening to-night to the names of all those great singers of the past it
seemed to me, I must confess, that we were living in a less spacious age.
Those days might, without exaggeration, be called spacious days: and if they
are gone beyond recall let us hope, at least, that in gatherings such as this
we shall still speak of them with pride and affection, still cherish in our
hearts the memory of those dead and gone great ones whose fame the world will
not willingly let die. —Hear, hear! said
Mr Browne loudly. —But yet, continued Gabriel, his voice
falling into a softer inflection, there are always in gatherings such as this sadder thoughts that will recur to our minds:
thoughts of the past, of youth, of changes, of absent faces that we miss here
tonight. Our path through life is strewn with many such sad memories: and
were we to brood upon them always we could not find the heart to go on
bravely with our work among the living. We have all of us living duties and
living affections which claim, and rightly claim, our strenuous endeavours. —Therefore, I will not linger on
the past. I will not let any gloomy moralising
intrude upon us here to-night. Here we are gathered together for a brief
moment from the bustle and rush of our everyday routine. We are met here as
friends, in the spirit of good-fellowship, as colleagues, also to a certain
extent, in the true spirit of camaraderie, and as the guests of—what shall I
call them?—the Three Graces of the Dublin musical world. The table burst into applause and
laughter at this sally. Aunt Julia vainly asked each of her neighbours in turn to tell her what Gabriel had said. —He says we are the Three Graces,
Aunt Julia, said Mary Jane. Aunt Julia did not understand but
she looked up, smiling, at Gabriel, who continued in the same vein: —Ladies and Gentlemen. —I will not attempt to play
to-night the part that Paris played on another occasion. I will not attempt
to choose between them. The task would be an invidious one and one beyond my
poor powers. For when I view them in turn, whether it be our chief hostess
herself, whose good heart, whose too good heart, has become a byword with all
who know her, or her sister, who seems to be gifted with perennial youth and
whose singing must have been a surprise and a revelation to us all to-night,
or, last but not least, when I consider our youngest hostess, talented,
cheerful, hard-working and the best of nieces, I confess, Ladies and
Gentlemen, that I do not know to which of them I should award the prize. Gabriel glanced down at his aunts
and, seeing the large smile on Aunt Julia's face and the tears which had
risen to Aunt Kate's eyes, hastened to his close. He raised his glass of port
gallantly, while every member of the company fingered a glass expectantly,
and said loudly: —Let us toast them all three
together. Let us drink to their health, wealth, long life, happiness and
prosperity and may they long continue to hold the proud and self-won position
which they hold in their profession and the position of honour
and affection which they hold in our hearts. All the guests stood up, glass in
hand, and, turning towards the three seated ladies, sang in unison, with Mr Browne as leader: For they are jolly gay fellows, Aunt Kate was making frank use of
her handkerchief and even Aunt Julia seemed moved. Freddy Malins
beat time with his pudding-fork and the singers turned towards one another,
as if in melodious conference, while they sang, with emphasis: Unless he tells a lie, Then, turning once more towards
their hostesses, they sang: For they are jolly gay fellows, The acclamation which followed was
taken up beyond the door of the supper-room by many of the other guests and
renewed time after time, Freddy Malins acting as
officer with his fork on high. .
. . . . . . The
piercing morning air came into the hall where they
were standing so that Aunt Kate said: —Close the door, somebody. Mrs Malins will get her death of cold. —Browne is out there, Aunt Kate,
said Mary Jane. —Browne is everywhere, said Aunt
Kate, lowering her voice. Mary Jane laughed at her tone. —Really, she said archly, he is
very attentive. —He has been laid on here like the
gas, said Aunt Kate in the same tone, all during the Christmas. She laughed herself this time
good-humouredly and then added quickly: —But tell him to come in, Mary
Jane, and close the door. I hope to goodness he didn't hear me. At that moment the hall-door was
opened and Mr Browne came in from the doorstep,
laughing as if his heart would break. He was dressed in a long green overcoat
with mock astrakhan cuffs and collar and wore on his head an oval fur cap. He
pointed down the snow-covered quay from where the sound of shrill prolonged
whistling was borne in. —Teddy will have all the cabs in
Dublin out, he said. Gabriel advanced from the little pantry behind the
office, struggling into his overcoat and, looking round the hall, said: —Gretta
not down yet? —She's getting on her things,
Gabriel, said Aunt Kate. —Who's playing up there? asked Gabriel. —Nobody. They're all gone. —O no, Aunt Kate, said Mary Jane.
Bartell D'Arcy and Miss O'Callaghan aren't gone yet. —Someone is strumming at the
piano, anyhow, said Gabriel. Mary
Jane glanced at Gabriel and Mr Browne and said with
a shiver: —It
makes me feel cold to look at you two gentlemen muffled up like that. I
wouldn't like to face your journey home at this hour. —I'd like nothing better this
minute, said Mr Browne stoutly, than a rattling
fine walk in the country or a fast drive with a good spanking goer between the shafts. —We used to have a very good horse
and trap at home, said Aunt Julia sadly. —The never-to-be-forgotten Johnny,
said Mary Jane, laughing. Aunt Kate and Gabriel laughed too.
—Why, what was wonderful about
Johnny? asked Mr Browne. —The late lamented Patrick Morkan, our grandfather, that is, explained Gabriel,
commonly known in his later years as the old gentleman, was a glue-boiler. —O, now, Gabriel, said Aunt Kate,
laughing, he had a starch mill. —Well, glue or starch, said
Gabriel, the old gentleman had a horse by the name of Johnny. And Johnny used
to work in the old gentleman's mill, walking round and round in order to
drive the mill. That was all very well; but now comes the tragic part about
Johnny. One fine day the old gentleman thought he'd like to drive out with
the quality to a military review in the park. —The Lord have
mercy on his soul, said Aunt Kate compassionately. —Amen, said Gabriel. So the old
gentleman, as I said, harnessed Johnny and put on his very best tall hat and
his very best stock collar and drove out in grand style from his ancestral
mansion somewhere near Back Lane, I think. Everyone laughed, even Mrs Malins, at Gabriel's manner
and Aunt Kate said: —O now, Gabriel, he didn't live in
Back Lane, really. Only the mill was there. —Out from the mansion of his
forefathers, continued Gabriel, he drove with Johnny. And everything went on
beautifully until Johnny came in sight of King Billy's statue: and whether he
fell in love with the horse King Billy sits on or whether he thought he was
back again in the mill, anyhow he began to walk round the statue. Gabriel paced in a circle round
the hall in his galoshes amid the laughter of the others. —Round and round he went, said
Gabriel, and the old gentleman, who was a very pompous old gentleman, was
highly indignant. Go on, sir! What do you mean, sir? Johnny! Johnny! Most extraordinary
conduct! Can't understand the horse! The peals of laughter which
followed Gabriel's imitation of the incident were interrupted by a resounding
knock at the hall- door. Mary Jane ran to open it and let in Freddy Malins. Freddy Malins, with his
hat well back on his head and his shoulders humped with cold, was puffing and
steaming after his exertions. —I could only get one cab, he
said. —O, we'll find another along the
quay, said Gabriel. —Yes, said Aunt Kate. Better not
keep Mrs Malins standing
in the draught. Mrs Malins was helped down the
front steps by her son and Mr Browne and, after
many manoeuvres, hoisted into the cab. Freddy Malins clambered in after her and spent a long time
settling her on the seat, Mr Browne helping him
with advice. At last she was settled comfortably and Freddy Malins invited Mr Browne into
the cab. There was a good deal of confused talk, and then Mr
Browne got into the cab. The cabman settled his rug over his knees, and bent
down for the address. The confusion grew greater and the cabman was directed
differently by Freddy Malins and Mr Browne, each of whom had his head out through a window
of the cab. The difficulty was to know where to drop Mr
Browne along the route and Aunt Kate, Aunt Julia and Mary Jane helped the
discussion from the doorstep with cross-directions and contradictions and
abundance of laughter. As for Freddy Malins he was
speechless with laughter. He popped his head in and out of the window every
moment, to the great danger of his hat, and told his mother how the
discussion was progressing till at last Mr Browne
shouted to the bewildered cabman above the din of everybody's laughter: —Do you know Trinity College? —Yes, sir, said the cabman. —Well, drive bang up against
Trinity College gates, said Mr Browne, and then
we'll tell you where to go. You understand now? —Yes, sir, said the cabman. —Make like a bird for Trinity
College. —Right, sir, cried the cabman. The horse was whipped up and the
cab rattled off along the quay amid a chorus of laughter and adieus. [Gabriel sees Gretta] Gabriel
had not gone to the door with the others. He was in a dark part of the hall
gazing up the staircase. A woman was standing near the top of the first
flight, in the shadow also. He could not see her face but he could see the
terracotta and salmon pink panels of her skirt which the shadow made appear
black and white. It was his wife. She was leaning on the banisters, listening
to something. Gabriel was surprised at her stillness and strained his ear to
listen also. But he could hear little save the noise of laughter and dispute
on the front steps, a few chords struck on the piano and a few notes of a
man's voice singing. He
stood still in the gloom of the hall, trying to catch the air that the voice
was singing and gazing up at his wife. There was grace and mystery in her
attitude as if she were a symbol of something. He asked himself what is a woman standing on the stairs in the shadow, listening
to distant music, a symbol of. If he were a painter he would paint her in
that attitude. Her blue felt hat would show off the bronze of her hair
against the darkness and the dark panels of her skirt would show off the
light ones. Distant Music he would call the picture if he were a painter. The hall-door was closed; and Aunt
Kate, Aunt Julia and Mary Jane came down the hall, still laughing. —Well, isn't Freddy terrible? said Mary Jane. He's really terrible. Gabriel
said nothing but pointed up the stairs towards where his wife was standing.
Now that the hall-door was closed the voice and the piano could be heard more
clearly. Gabriel held up his hand for them to be silent. The song seemed to
be in the old Irish tonality and the singer seemed uncertain both of his
words and of his voice. The voice, made plaintive by distance and by the
singer's hoarseness, faintly illuminated the cadence of the air with words
expressing grief: O,
the rain falls on my heavy locks —O,
exclaimed Mary Jane. It's Bartell D'Arcy singing and he wouldn't sing all the
night. O, I'll get him to sing a song before he goes. —O do, Mary Jane, said Aunt Kate. Mary Jane brushed past the others
and ran to the staircase but before she reached it the singing stopped and
the piano was closed abruptly. —O, what a pity! she cried. Is he coming down, Gretta?
Gabriel heard his wife answer yes and saw her come down towards them. A few
steps behind her were Mr Bartell D'Arcy and Miss
O'Callaghan. —O, Mr
D'Arcy, cried Mary Jane, it's downright mean of you
to break off like that when we were all in raptures listening to you. [cold and snow] —I have been at him all the
evening, said Miss O'Callaghan, and Mrs Conroy too
and he told us he had a dreadful cold and couldn't sing. —O, Mr
D'Arcy, said Aunt Kate, now that was a great fib to
tell. —Can't you see that I'm as hoarse
as a crow? said Mr D'Arcy
roughly. He went into the pantry hastily
and put on his overcoat. The others, taken aback by his rude speech, could
find nothing to say. Aunt Kate wrinkled her brows and made signs to the others
to drop the subject. Mr D'Arcy stood swathing his
neck carefully and frowning. —It's the weather, said Aunt
Julia, after a pause. —Yes, everybody has colds, said Aunt Kate readily,
everybody. —They say, said Mary Jane, we
haven't had snow like it for thirty years; and I read this morning in the
newspapers that the snow is general all over Ireland. —I love the look of snow, said
Aunt Julia sadly. —So do I, said Miss O'Callaghan. I
think Christmas is never really Christmas unless we have the snow on the
ground. —But poor Mr
D'Arcy doesn't like the snow, said Aunt Kate, smiling. Mr D'Arcy came from the pantry, fully swathed and buttoned, and
in a repentant tone told them the history of his cold. Everyone gave him
advice and said it was a great pity and urged him to be very careful of his
throat in the night air. Gabriel
watched his wife who did not join in the conversation. She was standing right
under the dusty fanlight and the flame of the gas lit up the rich bronze of
her hair which he had seen her drying at the fire a few days before. She was
in the same attitude and seemed unaware of the talk about her. At last she
turned towards them and Gabriel saw that there was colour
on her checks and that her eyes were shining. A sudden tide of joy went leaping
out of his heart. —Mr
D'Arcy, she said, what is the name of that song you were singing? —It's
called The Lass of Aughrim, said Mr D'Arcy,
but I couldn't remember it properly. Why? Do you know it? —The Lass of Aughrim,
she repeated. I couldn't think of the name. —It's a very nice air, said Mary
Jane. I'm sorry you were not in voice to-night. —Now, Mary Jane, said Aunt Kate,
don't annoy Mr D'Arcy. I won't have him annoyed. Seeing that all were ready to
start she shepherded them to the door where good-night was said: —Well, good-night, Aunt Kate, and
thanks for the pleasant evening. —Good-night, Gabriel. Good-night, Gretta! —Good-night, Aunt Kate, and thanks
ever so much. Good- night, Aunt Julia. —O, good-night, Gretta, I didn't see you. —Good-night, Mr
D'Arcy. Good-night, Miss O'Callaghan. —Good-night, Miss Morkan. —Good-night, again. —Good-night, all. Safe home. —Good-night. Good-night. The morning was still dark. A dull
yellow light brooded over the houses and the river; and the sky seemed to be
descending. It was slushy underfoot; and only streaks and patches of snow lay
on the roofs, on the parapets of the quay and on the area railings. The lamps
were still burning redly in the murky air and,
across the river, the palace of the Four Courts stood out menacingly against
the heavy sky. She
was walking on before him with Mr Bartell D'Arcy,
her shoes in a brown parcel tucked under one arm and her hands holding her
skirt up from the slush. She had
no longer any grace of attitude but Gabriel's eyes were still bright with
happiness. The blood went
bounding along his veins; and the thoughts went rioting through his brain,
proud, joyful, tender, valorous. She was walking on before him so
lightly and so erect that he longed to run after her noiselessly, catch her
by the shoulders and say something foolish and affectionate into her ear. She
seemed to him so frail that he longed to defend her against something and
then to be alone with her. Moments of their secret life together burst like
stars upon his memory. A heliotrope envelope was lying beside his
breakfast-cup and he was caressing it with his hand. Birds were twittering in
the ivy and the sunny web of the curtain was shimmering along the floor: he
could not eat for happiness. They were standing on the crowded platform and
he was placing a ticket inside the warm palm of her glove. He was standing with her in the cold,
looking in through a grated window at a man making bottles in a roaring furnace. It was very cold. Her face,
fragrant in the cold
air, was quite close to his; and suddenly she called out to the man at the
furnace: —Is the fire hot, sir? But the man could not hear her
with the noise of the furnace. It was just as well. He might have answered
rudely. A wave of yet more tender joy escaped
from his heart and went coursing in warm flood along his arteries. Like the
tender fires of stars moments of their life together, that no one knew of or
would ever know of, broke upon and illumined his memory. He longed to recall
to her those moments, to make her forget the years of their dull existence
together and remember only their moments of ecstasy. For the years, he felt,
had not quenched his soul or hers. Their children, his writing, her household
cares had not quenched all their souls' tender fire. In one letter that he
had written to her then he had said: Why is it that words like these seem to
me so dull and cold? Is it because there is no word tender enough to be your
name? Like distant music these words
that he had written years before were borne towards him from the past. He
longed to be alone with her. When the others had gone away, when he and she
were in their room in the hotel, then they would be alone together. He would
call her softly: —Gretta!
Perhaps she would not hear at once:
she would be undressing. Then something in his voice would strike her. She
would turn and look at him. . . . At the corner of Winetavern Street they met a cab. He was glad of its
rattling noise as it saved him from conversation. She was looking out of the
window and seemed tired. The others spoke only a few words, pointing out some
building or street. The horse galloped along wearily under the murky morning
sky, dragging his old rattling box after his heels, and Gabriel was again in
a cab with her, galloping to catch the boat, galloping to their honeymoon. As the cab drove across O'Connell
Bridge Miss O'Callaghan said: —They say you never cross
O'Connell Bridge without seeing a white horse. —I see a white man this time, said
Gabriel. Where? asked
Mr Bartell D'Arcy. Gabriel pointed to the statue, on
which lay patches of snow. Then he nodded familiarly to it and waved his
hand. —Good-night, Dan, he said gaily. When the cab drew up before the
hotel Gabriel jumped out and, in spite of Mr
Bartell D'Arcy's protest, paid the driver. He gave the man a shilling over
his fare. The man saluted and said: —A prosperous New Year to you,
sir. —The same to you, said Gabriel
cordially. She leaned for a moment on his arm
in getting out of the cab and while standing at the curbstone, bidding the
others good- night. She leaned lightly on his arm, as lightly as when she had
danced with him a few hours before. He had felt proud and happy then, happy
that she was his, proud of her grace and wifely carriage. But now, after the
kindling again of so many memories, the first touch of her body, musical and
strange and perfumed, sent through him a keen pang of lust. Under cover of
her silence he pressed her arm closely to his side; and, as they stood at the
hotel door, he felt that they had escaped from their lives and duties,
escaped from home and friends and run away together with wild and radiant
hearts to a new adventure. An old man was dozing in a great
hooded chair in the hall. He lit a candle in the office and went before them
to the stairs. They followed him in silence, their feet falling in soft thuds
on the thickly carpeted stairs. She mounted the stairs behind the Porter, her
head bowed in the ascent, her frail shoulders curved as with a burden, her
skirt girt tightly about her. He could have flung his arms about her hips and
held her still for his arms were trembling with desire to seize her and only
the stress of his nails against the palms of his hands held the wild impulse
of his body in check. The porter halted on the stairs to settle his guttering
candle. They halted too on the steps below him. In the silence Gabriel could
hear the falling of the molten wax into the tray and the thumping of his own
heart against his ribs. The porter led them along a
corridor and opened a door. Then he set his unstable candle down on a
toilet-table and asked at what hour they were to be called in the morning. —Eight, said Gabriel. The porter pointed to the tap of
the electric-light and began a muttered apology but Gabriel cut him short. —We don't want any light. We have
light enough from the street. And I say, he added, pointing to the candle,
you might remove that handsome article, like a good man. The porter took up his candle
again, but slowly for he was surprised by such a novel idea. Then he mumbled
good-night and went out. Gabriel shot the lock to. A ghostly light from the street
lamp lay in a long shaft from one window to the door. Gabriel threw his
overcoat and hat on a couch and crossed the room towards the window. He looked
down into the street in order that his emotion might calm a little. Then he
turned and leaned against a chest of drawers with his back to the light. She
had taken off her hat and cloak and was standing before a large swinging
mirror, unhooking her waist. Gabriel paused for a few moments, watching her,
and then said: —Gretta!
She turned away from the mirror
slowly and walked along the shaft of light towards him. Her face looked so
serious and weary that the words would not pass Gabriel's lips. No, it was
not the moment yet. —You looked tired, he said. —I am a little, she answered. —You don't feel ill or weak? —No, tired: that's all. She went on to the window and
stood there, looking out. Gabriel waited again and then, fearing that
diffidence was about to conquer him, he said abruptly: —By the way, Gretta!
—What is it? —You know that poor fellow Malins? he said quickly. —Yes. What about him? —Well, poor fellow, he's a decent
sort of chap after all, continued Gabriel in a false voice. He gave me back
that sovereign I lent him and I didn't expect it really. It's a pity he
wouldn't keep away from that Browne, because he's not a bad fellow at heart. He was trembling now with
annoyance. Why did she seem so abstracted? He did not know how he could
begin. Was she annoyed, too, about something? If she would only turn to him
or come to him of her own accord! To take her as she was would be brutal. No,
he must see some ardour in her eyes first. He
longed to be master of her strange mood. —When did you lend him the pound? she asked, after a pause. Gabriel strove to restrain himself
from breaking out into brutal language about the sottish
Malins and his pound. He longed to cry to her from
his soul, to crush her body against his, to overmaster her. But he said: —O, at Christmas, when he opened
that little Christmas- card shop in Henry Street. He was in such a fever of rage and
desire that he did not hear her come from the window. She stood before him
for an instant, looking at him strangely. Then, suddenly raising herself on
tiptoe and resting her hands lightly on his shoulders, she kissed him. —You are a very generous person,
Gabriel, she said. Gabriel, trembling with delight at
her sudden kiss and at the quaintness of her phrase, put his hands on her
hair and began smoothing it back, scarcely touching it with his fingers. The
washing had made it fine and brilliant. His heart was brimming over with
happiness. Just when he was wishing for it she had come to him of her own
accord. Perhaps her thoughts had been running with his. Perhaps she had felt
the impetuous desire that was in him and then the yielding mood had come upon
her. Now that she had fallen to him so easily he wondered why he had been so
diffident. He stood, holding her head between
his hands. Then, slipping one arm swiftly about her body and drawing her
towards him, he said softly: —Gretta
dear, what are you thinking about? She did not answer nor yield
wholly to his arm. He said again, softly: —Tell me what it is, Gretta. I think I know what is the
matter. Do I know? She did not answer at once. Then
she said in an outburst of tears: —O, I am thinking about that song,
The Lass of Aughrim. She broke loose from him and ran
to the bed and, throwing her arms across the bed-rail, hid her face. Gabriel
stood stock-still for a moment in astonishment and then followed her. As he
passed in the way of the cheval-glass he caught sight of himself in full
length, his broad, well-filled shirt-front, the face whose expression always
puzzled him when he saw it in a mirror and his glimmering gilt-rimmed
eyeglasses. He halted a few paces from her and said: —What about the song? Why does that make you cry?
She raised her head from her arms and dried her eyes with the back of
her hand like a child. A kinder note than he had intended went into his
voice. —Why, Gretta? he
asked. —I am thinking about a person long ago who used to sing that song. —And who was the person long ago? asked
Gabriel, smiling. —It was a person I used to know in Galway when I was living with my
grandmother, she said. The smile passed away from Gabriel's face. A dull anger began to
gather again at the back of his mind and the dull fires of his lust began to
glow angrily in his veins. —Someone you were in love with? he asked
ironically. —It was a young boy I used to know, she answered, named Michael Furey. He used to sing that song, The Lass of Aughrim. He was very delicate. Gabriel was silent. He did not wish her to think that he was
interested in this delicate boy. —I can see him so plainly, she said after a moment. Such eyes as he
had: big dark eyes! And such an expression in them—an expression! —O then, you were in love with him? said
Gabriel. —I used to go out walking with him, she said, when I was in Galway. A thought flew across Gabriel's mind. —Perhaps that was why you wanted to go to Galway with that Ivors girl? he said coldly. She looked at him and asked in surprise: —What for? Her eyes made Gabriel feel awkward. He shrugged his shoulders and
said: —How do I know? To see him perhaps. She looked away from him along the shaft of light towards the window
in silence. —He is dead, she said at length. He died when he was only seventeen.
Isn't it a terrible thing to die so young as that? —What was he? asked Gabriel, still
ironically. —He was in the gasworks, she said.
Gabriel felt humiliated by the failure of his irony and by the
evocation of this figure from the dead, a boy in the gasworks. While he had
been full of memories of their secret life together, full of tenderness and
joy and desire, she had been comparing him in her mind with another. A
shameful consciousness of his own person assailed him. He saw himself as a
ludicrous figure, acting as a pennyboy for his
aunts, a nervous well-meaning sentimentalist, orating to vulgarians
and idealising his own clownish lusts, the pitiable
fatuous fellow he had caught a glimpse of in the mirror. Instinctively he
turned his back more to the light lest she might see the shame that burned
upon his forehead. He tried to keep up his tone of cold interrogation but his voice when
he spoke was humble and indifferent. —I suppose you were in love with this Michael Furey,
Gretta, he said. —I was great with him at that time, she said. Her voice was veiled and sad. Gabriel, feeling now how vain it would
be to try to lead her whither he had purposed, caressed one of her hands and
said, also sadly: —And what did he die of so young, Gretta?
Consumption, was it? —I think he died for me, she answered. A vague terror seized Gabriel at this answer as if, at that hour when
he had hoped to triumph, some impalpable and vindictive being was coming
against him, gathering forces against him in its vague world. But he shook
himself free of it with an effort of reason and continued to caress her hand.
He did not question her again for he felt that she would tell him of herself.
Her hand was warm and moist: it did not respond to his touch but he continued
to caress it just as he had caressed her first letter to him that spring morning.
—It was in the winter, she said, about
the beginning of the winter when I was going
to leave my grandmother's and come up here to the convent. And he was ill at
the time in his lodgings in Galway and wouldn't be let out and his people in Oughterard were written to. He was in decline, they said,
or something like that. I never knew rightly. She paused for a moment and sighed. —Poor fellow, she said. He was very fond of me and he was such a
gentle boy. We used to go out together, walking, you know, Gabriel, like the
way they do in the country. He was going to study singing only for his
health. He had a very good voice, poor Michael Furey.
—Well; and then? asked Gabriel. —And then when it came to the time for me to leave Galway and come up
to the convent he was much worse and I wouldn't be let see him so I wrote a
letter saying I was going up to Dublin and would be back in the summer and
hoping he would be better then. She paused for a moment to get her voice under control and then went
on: —Then
the night before I left I was in my grandmother's house in Nuns' Island,
packing up, and I heard gravel thrown up against the window. The window was
so wet I couldn't see so I ran downstairs as I was and slipped out the back
into the garden and there was the poor fellow at the end of the garden,
shivering. —And did you not tell him to go back? asked
Gabriel. —I
implored of him to go home at once and told him he would get his death in the
rain. But he said he did not want to live. I can see his eyes as well as well!
He was standing at the end of the wall where there was a tree. —And did he go home? asked Gabriel. —Yes, he went home. And when I was only a week in the convent he died
and he was buried in Oughterard where his people
came from. O, the day I heard that, that he was dead! She stopped, choking with sobs, and, overcome by emotion, flung
herself face downward on the bed, sobbing in the quilt. Gabriel held her hand
for a moment longer, irresolutely, and then, shy of
intruding on her grief, let it fall gently and walked quietly to the window. She
was fast asleep. Gabriel, leaning on his elbow, looked for a few moments unresentfully on her tangled hair and half-open mouth,
listening to her deep-drawn breath. So she had had that romance in her life:
a man had died for her sake. It hardly pained him now to think how poor a
part he, her husband, had played in her life. He watched her while she slept
as though he and she had never lived together as man and wife. His curious
eyes rested long upon her face and on her hair: and, as he thought of what
she must have been then, in that time of her first girlish beauty, a strange
friendly pity for her entered his soul. He did not like to say even to
himself that her face was no longer beautiful but he knew that it was no
longer the face for which Michael Furey had braved
death. Perhaps she had not told him all the story.
His eyes moved to the chair over which she had thrown some of her clothes. A
petticoat string dangled to the floor. One boot stood upright, its limp upper
fallen down: the fellow of it lay upon its side. He wondered at his riot of
emotions of an hour before. From what had it proceeded? From his aunt's
supper, from his own foolish speech, from the wine and dancing, the merry-making
when saying good- night in the hall, the pleasure of the walk along the river
in the snow. Poor Aunt Julia! She, too, would soon be a shade with the shade
of Patrick Morkan and his horse. He had caught that
haggard look upon her face for a moment when she was singing Arrayed for the
Bridal. Soon, perhaps, he would be sitting in that same drawing-room, dressed
in black, his silk hat on his knees. The blinds would be drawn down and Aunt
Kate would be sitting beside him, crying and blowing her nose and telling him
how Julia had died. He would cast about in his mind for some words that might
console her, and would find only lame and useless ones. Yes, yes: that would
happen very soon. The air of the room chilled his shoulders. He stretched himself
cautiously along under the sheets and lay down beside his wife. One by one
they were all becoming shades. Better pass boldly into that other
world, in the full glory of some passion, than fade and wither dismally with
age. He thought of how she who lay beside him had locked in her heart for
so many years that image of her lover's eyes when he had told her that he did
not wish to live. Generous tears filled Gabriel's eyes. He had never felt like that
himself towards any woman but he knew that such a feeling must be love. The
tears gathered more thickly in his eyes and in the partial darkness he
imagined he saw the form of a young man standing under a dripping tree. Other
forms were near. His soul had approached that region where dwell the vast
hosts of the dead. He was conscious of, but could not apprehend, their
wayward and flickering existence. His own identity was fading out into a grey
impalpable world: the solid world itself which these dead had one time reared
and lived in was dissolving and dwindling. A few light taps upon the pane made him turn to the window. It had
begun to snow again. He watched sleepily the flakes, silver and dark, falling
obliquely against the lamplight. The time had come for him to set out on his
journey westward. Yes, the newspapers were right: snow was general all over
Ireland. It was falling on every part of the dark central plain, on the
treeless hills, falling softly upon the Bog of Allen and, farther westward,
softly falling into the dark mutinous Shannon waves. It was falling, too, upon
every part of the lonely churchyard on the hill where Michael Furey lay buried. It lay thickly drifted on the crooked
crosses and headstones, on the spears of the little gate, on the barren
thorns. His soul swooned slowly as he heard the snow falling faintly through
the universe and faintly falling, like the descent of their last end, upon
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